Sorry

What is Will sorry about?

Why / Why Not?

I have learned that in much of my life, when I ask myself, “Why did I do XYZ?”, I am at a loss for answers. Instead, I find that inaction is my vice, weakness, and curse. Instead, I have to ask myself, “Why didn’t I do XYZ?”

So, simply put, I have trouble prioritizing the things that matter most in my life. Most of the time, I am the only one that suffers.

Sometimes, my inaction results in delays and open actions with the most important people. The common theme is that I didn’t prioritize messaging & actions with each of you and got stuck behind a paralyzing wall of guilt.

For the past few months, I have had many stressful decisions on my plate, and a bunch of important life maintenance activities that I was behind on. I prioritized my own well-being, family, in-person projects, and organization. I have since addressed many of my personal issues and am getting myself ready to catch back up with my life.

Goals

I am not going to get better at keeping up overnight. Realistically, I aim to be caught up on my personal and social deficit by Thanksgiving. I have built out a plan to execute towards this target.

Who?

Each of you is amazing, and I owe each of you so much

In a randomized order, I wanted to write down a list of some of the people I am most behind with. This is in large part to assign myself accountability, and to remind myself how bad I have been. Also, for any of you that see this, to know that I acknowledge my gap, and remind you that this is not personal, and confirm the classic phrase “It’s not you, it’s me.”

• Joanna
• Yiming
• Chris
• Ling
• CowCow
• Jing
• Aarjav
• Chad
• Andy
• Lucia
• Mike
• Tony
• Michelle
• Andrew
• Yunling

I am also way behind with former Tesla coworkers, and connections on LinkedIn, and plenty of others 😅